What is happening?
I don't know why I suddenly am bothered now, but I hardly see some of my closest friends anymore.
Granted, this was always going to be the case with several of them. The college kids go off to college, and the people who are going to move away are going to move away, and the middle schoolers are still going to be in middle school. But what about the people who I should be hanging out with every day in high school?
Where does it start?
Does it come from the fact that it seems like I have almost no classes with any of my closest friends at all? That I instantly lose a link of conversation during school that they all seem to share?
Does it come from the fact that I've always been a quiet person? From the fact that whenever there are group conversations going on, I'm always left alone? The one person who it seems isn't contributing?
Does it come from the fact that I'm simply just out of modern pop culture? That I don't following meaningless TV shows and bad musicians, and therefore lose several points of conversation there?
Does it come from the fact that I have so much I do outside of school that I hardly see anyone outside of school and school-related activities ever? I can't even remember when the last time I met with a friend from school just for the sake of spending time together.
What ever is it? And what is it for? Is this preparing me for the ultimate social knife that's going to sever everything when I go to college? Should I be separating or moving in? And then there's the fact that someone mentioned prom to me, and I have absolutely no plans for that yet.
What ever am I going to do?
-NM
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