The Last Callback

This is it.  The last time I'm ever going to have to do a callback at high school.  Maybe the last time ever.

The last time that I'm going to have waited for the date to be announced, the email to be sent.  To find out what I'm going to have to work for!  To wait so I can learn what to sing, who I'm up against.

The last time I'm going to be let down.

I hope Mr. V's not reading this.

The past three years, callbacks have been uneventful.  My freshmen and sophomore years, I never really expected anything.  I was an underclassmen, and nothing was really to be expected.  I told myself that my time was coming, that pretty soon things would change.

Last year I was disappointed, but not shocked.  Although people kept telling me I should try for Evelyn, I never felt strongly connected with the part.  Though I thought I would at least get a callback.  I was wrong.  No callback for Evelyn came.  I told myself, well, this just wasn't your show.  Next year's your senior year.  Next year things will change.

Next year came yesterday.  Nothing changed.

We are doing Pirates of Penzance.  There are three male leads, two of which I could see myself playing.  I didn't get called back for any of them.  I did get a callback, just not for either of the parts I was hoping for.

It's not just that this means I'm going to go throughout high school without any sort of lead role.  That's not the issue here.  It's also that I've gone through high school without even being considered for a lead.  It's not that I'm not lead material, it's that I'm not even potential lead material.  I was hoping that that wasn't the case.

I'm sure that Mr. V knows what he is doing.  I'm sure that I could pull off the Police Sergeant pretty well.  It's going to be a great time, we're doing a show that's sure to be a blast!  It's just that I'm maybe a little disappointed.

-NM